holla at it! #1

listening to: the virgins

i've currently coined the term "holla at it" at almost everything haha but i've decided that i might as well use it to kinda, separate my more personal posts to my shoots/photography adventures. i guess you could call these ones just general updates on my life!

so i've been working hard just studying other photographers and starting to gather inspiration from the ones i'm really looking up to (i've begun to stick their photos on my corkboard so i can always feel inspired)! these past two weeks i've also dedicated to really just trying to understand the business from afar and figure out how i want to be in it, i guess i've been doing a lot of "soul searching" in my photography haha. kinda lame term but i really don't know what to call it!

i've always been searching for more opportunities to shoot! a few days ago i was emailed and confirmed the opportunity to shoot at the Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week which is incredible! i've also been gaining more confidence to contact models etc. and bands offering my services and considering how shy i normally am i really do give myself a pat on the back!

my part time jobs have been really good, they're not too stressful and working 2-3 days a week is perfect for me as i try to sort of figure myself out and exactly what i want to do this year. i've also been making more friends at work which is a bonus because i've been feeling a bit lonely not being in school everyday alongside my amazing group of friends but it's starting to teach me to be more independent so that's awesome!

i've just been feeling a good vibe over the past few weeks which i haven't felt in years and i really think it's because i'm starting to follow my heart and my dreams after yearning for it for ages. i used to feel so tired like an old soul reaching the end of their life but that's really begun to change and i feel awakened, i feel anew and i just feel fresh and truly happy. i have more energy to do things, way more motivation to get up every morning and i'm actually starting to finish things instead of leaving them half done which is such a big accomplishment for me! i just feel like, this is it and my life is starting to begin. i really am so happy with where i am, not to say that i won't keep trying to move forward but the gears are in motion and i know what i'm doing is right. i have so many people to thank including my family, especially my parents who've been more than supportive, my friends who've always believed in me and squealed whenever i tell them good news and my lovely boyfriend who without him, i really wouldn't have been able to believe in myself and learn that i'm worth so much and i am capable of so much.

well this was longer than i expected but it feels good to put it down somewhere cause i can't wait to look back on it!